Welp I decieded to repost some older photos of  my now Old childhood home during some not so nice winter storms.. this ones for you Derpman!! (you know who you are) here's your Snow!!

Blocked and drying now

Okay I finally got around to  Blocking the Criss Cross Tank top and now also this First attempt at Toe up socks. Blocked them and set them outside hoping they will dry a little faster in the sun and warm weather.

                                                                                                                                                                    Update to this post is the socks are already Dry and the tanktop is still outside blocked for now.

Some New updated Pictures of my older Furbaby Etain From this morning as I was having the last of the coffee in the house. My Handsome boy I love him Soo much!!

this ones for you Graveyard Greg.. Meet Etain and Blaze

Latest FO for myself for the summer..Knitted CrissCross Tank top

I finished this last month before my world started falling the heck apart. Been working on Tank Number 2 but haven't had the desire with the undo stress lately that's been dumped on my head thanks to an asshole  unowned dickhead family member,

Okay so the 1 time a month didn't work out but anyways.. On to a List...

if anyone read the posts before this one well  you can see I am NOT by any means PC at all and I don't care who doesn't approve of it. I normally speak my mind and will continue to be myself  despite assholes and haters(yes I am referring certain fuckhead family members) that happen to be coawards and can't face me with adult issues.

 So now that that that rant is out of the way Onto a List I promised I would post for  the Cubs of  Lion-ness on Twitch.

 the following aren't in any specific order but these are sites I frequent and get mail from that have some really decent sales on some fine/good quality yarns.. Enjoy folks..(btw if you wanna follow me the more the merrier:)


 Smiley's- http://www.smileysyarns.com/shop/
Knit Picks- KnitPicks.com
Webs- http://www.yarn.com/?utm_source=ravelry&utm_medium=marketplace&utm_campaign=nov10
Jimmy Beans- https://www.jimmybeanswool.com/
Mary Maxim- http://www.marymaxim.com/
Craftsy- http://www.craftsy.com/supplies/yarn
Oink Pigments- http://www.oinkpigments.com/onlinestore/index.html
Dyabolical- https://www.etsy.com/shop/DyeabolicalYarns?ref=l2-shopheader-name


 there you go folks this is a just a short list. I can and will make a longer list if the demand is there. Also I can make a list of Free pattern/cheap pattern sites available in wanted..


 so  posting this right now and remember peeps.. the best person to watch out for you is YOU.

New Month/end of month posting/ranting.. your choice..

Okay so.. Again 1 month to the day since my last post but I've been sorta semi busy if anyone can believe that. I finished the Alien Face Hugger (pictured below)                                                                   

                                                                                                                                                                      Then I made a pair of new Slipper socks/boots for indoor wearing (my circulation sucks ass now a days so I am always cold)

And now after those are done I am in search of a decent easy to learn toe up Sock pattern to teach myself a new method to makes socks with which is proving to be a aggrivating search as i fond a lot of the people that make these pattern auto assume the general person has done it before yet none are will to really do a hands on step by step to help out the novice/ semi okay sock knitter.  And even before all this I had just finished my Second Sweater of the winter season and second ever I made for myself. and I might add this one is the best  yet..(pictured below)

So there you have it, the last few weeks of my time spent aside form trying to heal up from falling in the shower a week ago which sucked big time and left me bruised and hurting and worried if this thing is starting to spread again. Won't know that answer til my next DR  App. around my birthday time. Oh yeah something else that sorta is funny in a creepy/weird sorta way. remember last month i had a shitty blast from the past when they asshat ex msg'd me on FB? Well guess what.. yep got another blast from the past in the form of a freind I lost touch with about ugh almost 10yrs ago (damn has it been that long really?) So I replied and made sure it was him and sure as hell it was and he's married now etc etc etc and apperantly working and living near bye still. talk about creep factor lately with all the past lurking around the proverbial corners. so thats about it or this past months weird ass "adventures" and I will try to post more often but  bluntly i keep on forgetting since i am not even sure if anyone really pay any attention to my blogs in the first place since i never get any damned feedback from anyone that has a pulse.

 well i'm Outies.., Laters!!

So okay its been a little over a month with no Posts But OMFG.. this is to funny.

Okay so a little background to this post/rant that is just to funny not to share. Years ago.. more like 20 or so I dated this Dude that had the basic looks of a wanna be Backstreet boy with a seriously BAD platinum blonde dye job because he thought " it made him look damned good". Anyways.. we were freinds at first for many many yrs then that  pretty much changed and we were the BF&GF. Things happened on and off most of it was his cheating and lying.. we eventually just stopped talking all together IE he just literally Disappeared one day and stopped responding entirely to me. Then like a year later I find out the fuckhead had been cheating on me and then got his worthless ass married.

        okay so FAST forward to today/wee hours of the morning.  The Place... FB msging. I logged in to check FB as I normally do a  few times a day from my tablet when i am confined to bed from my legs being pita's. I see i got a freindship offer.. ookay who the F*ck would offer? doesn't this person know I am not some whinning PC asshole sheeple? are they ill or something? So okay I check FB and shit and the last thing I do before logging out I look at this persons Profile page and then I see the name and my first reaction is OMFG after all this time and the second is WTFH does this POS want and does he think I;d forgotten or forgiven his POS ass?!?! So Yep if you think I just deleted it and moved on  you'd be so wrong because  this stupid moron msg'd me he opened the door to get the ass chewing he so sorely deserved and YEP I said my piece in a most blunt forward to the point manner as possible. this is a Basic qoute of what I replied to his request and then his pathetic response to it which is laughable......



 " If this is the same person with the bad dye job that over 20 yrs ago lied to me, cheated on me, Back stabbed me,.. then NO I do not need your shit in my life or the stress it would bring"...I sent the reply and denied the offer and moved on. You would THINK a normal person would get the hint and move on .. but NOPE he is still that much of a fucking asshole as he was 20yrs ago and thinks he is privilaged to feel  HURT and indignant.. the following is part of his reply which I honestly didn't even read in its entirety because it was just pathetic he even tried to act butt hurt....
 "Thanks Alot. If you can't and don't have anything nice to...." and this is where i simply deleted the msg because WHO THE FUCK IS HE TO GET ALL ASS HURT?!?!?! Seriously Dude you are going to TRY to act all hurt and like I am the POS bad person for telling you exactly WHAT you are what you were and that you STILL are after ALL the LIES ALL the bullshit.. YOU ARE LAUGHABLE!! YOUR SAD  and your Pathetic you still haven't learned that Karma is a fucking bitch and you just got bit in the ass for the assinine stupid Punk ass shit you pulled.

 and so I close this Rant/giggle fest with a new AWARD given...

 TO  Robert Borisov I  give you 4 Whole BUTT PLUGS for the stupidest man on the planet thinking you had any right to get all indignant  and Butt hurt over my denial response to your sad offer of pathetic freindship I hope you rot in the hell of your feeble mind.

Happy Holidays to anyone watching...

Woo hoo its finally done!! Finished the wrap for my mother now to add buttons and weave in ends...:)

Those moments when you just want to tell a certain person to F*CK off already.

so what a way to get woke up in the morning off of my pain medication and Xanax for stress( remember this for later on) Blaze comes in hops on my chest and gets me semi awake to feed her and not even one foot into the kitchen an that my oh so Pain in the fucking ass Mother(Bitch) is jumping all over my fucking shit because the garbage didn't get taken out last night. Well Excuse the Fuck outta me its Not easy peasey to fucking lug over 100 lbs of SHIT on two legs that are constantly IN PAIN even ON medication! dumb ass bitch thinks its so fucking easy for me and uses her damned age  screaming at me then starts in with the degrading bullshit to try to make me feel even worse and ALL this shit does is PISS ME THE FUCK OFF. to say my mood atm is all miss happy sunshine is so far from the truth. 
   She apperantly feels its perfectly ALRIGHT to make my life a more living hell then  deserve because as she gets older she is more and more confined to home and limited. WELL BITCH GET USED TO IT!!!!!!. she thinks its fine to treat me like utter trash and then a simple I'm sorry makes it all right. IT doesn't not by a fucking long shot. Wait til stupid cunt needs something she really wants. she can hold her fucking breath. let her call her useless using Selfish dumb ass of a son.And people wonder WHY i am on Xanax 3 times a fucking day.. so I can fucking COPE living under the same roof with this stupid ungrateful BITCH.

Okay morning rant over and now  am just really Piss ass atm so please bare with me if i get bitchy.

Ugh Not going to be a good night tonight..

OKay so this is for the people that don't either get exactly what I mean about the legs not working  and the ones that think that all this is a "little" problem.. I DON"T normally post pictures like this but maybe people will get the idea finally that this isn't something so "simple" or such a "small issue" and I am not making up exagerated shit..


Okay so yeah..  Trying living with your legs like this 24/7/365, and BTW this is only  HALf way swollen so far.. its been much worse on a really Off day. this is only half gone because i slept alot today..

And this one was from 2 days ago, before i got on my compression machine to force the legs to unswell enough so i could get my compression stockings on for the day.. and BTW picture your legs like this and add chronic excrutiating dibilitating pain thats constantly like someone stabbing you and bashing your legs with a hammer at the same time 24/7/365.. this is why i needed the pain meds..

the right leg is slightly better then the left becasue that one had had 10 Vnus closures compared to the 9 on the left.

OMG we got a Surprise today! Well Etain did LOL..

Okay so today was a very uneventful day aside from  a Dr visit and then a vet stop to get Etain his Cosequine for the month.  So fine we have our dinner and we are checking twitter and  then WHAM! we get a new follower and its the One and ONlY GRUMPY CAT!! LOL okay so your thinking so what right? well for me and for Etain thats like a biggy huge honor that the grumpy Saw us on twitter at all :) Other then that  All I ahve been doing is knitting on Yule gifts and making some Kitteh blankets for local shelter and setting aside  scraps for some Catnip fishies for a Kitthe shelter in Norwalk ( Will post thier info soon on here) And jsut trying to get the swelling back down in my left leg again.. its bad.. right leg not so bad but the left lge is bad as i was on the compression machine twice today and it did a hell of a job reducing the swelling but as soon as I got off it the swelling came back grrr... hate that.


We Love you Grumpy CAT!!!!

awake..yet again..Ugh

4 a.m. and yet another aggrivating coughing fit woke me up because BP is going friggin wackie again..goddess i hate this shit sometimes..:(  Plus colder then a witches tit right now..UGH!! Might as well get back on the compression machine for another round since I'm unfortunately awake atm. Oh yeah  I got the Video up and running for Rob Dykes' Future Starring apperance. Mind you this is just something I made for him and Aprilthelee but I think it came out pretty damned decent. Check it out peeps if your reading this..its at the bottom of the page so Scroll on down...that way--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------->...and if your to lazy to scroll.. here's the link to my YouTube Channel. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCG3Sd8nku0V7d07Z8LInb9g

Recently Added..( Todays New additions since this i place is still under final construction)

 Welp I finally got Video Corner back up and running so you can see my little and Old attempt at posting a YouTube video  that was the start of my Journey in knitting and coming to terms with how my life is moving along.  The Next Addition will be THIngs I want to Advert.(Advertise) for freinds and followers and those I think deserve it or I really feel you should really Go check out.  And Speaking of that.. Coming soon.. Some teaser pics (at least one i hope) of a new "movie" coming out  soon! (still in Production) Starring the one and Only Rob Dyke of Seriously Strange, Zombie Horse , Social Autopsy and Internet Pariah his personal VLog. So Stay tuned to see the upcoming updates :)

A New Start...

Well its Nov. 23rd 2015 and 10:30 in the morning and already i had to call for a a mamgram appointment and blood work to see if I need to call an Oncologyst. Happy happy joy joy right? Um ..no.. its about as stress fill as you can get when you hear that word.. Oncologyst. First thing you think is that vile C word.. but at this point with the way things are  it wouldn't surprise me really. But I'm not going to sit here and blog about  depressing shit because frankly I sincerely doubt most of you give a rats ass. And yes  This blog will be blunt, crude and even nasty and opinionated at times, but these are my personal thoughts so you can deal with then or.. hehehe well you know what you can do, So onto the daily stuff shall we..?

 Logged into Twitter and its the normal cat posts and knitting and crocheting posts. I'm still working on the Cabled Wrap for my mother for Yule and that alien face hugger thing for my dip of a brother and maybe after I get those two things done i can start on my own sweater i have been planning to make over the winter. I have Managed to get my Flickr account back up and running so I will be posting a Link to that on here if I remember how to do that And also my YouTube Channel. Oh yeah I also as of the last month or so found two new YouTube channels I started following and to be honest thier both really great channels and the creators both  conduct themselves like adults (which I can't say for most You tubers) the first one is called Seriously Strange https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYxrnDjNQZIs_aAcdhqSveg. The Creators Name is Rob Dyke and he strikes me as this  outright blunt semi open minded personality thats very appealing to me to actually dare i say wish to get to know this person  better on a possible freind level( tho I am doubtful he would bother with me frankly I am almost twice his age LOL). And the second Channel is  By a Creator Name Mathew Santoro https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXhSCMRRPyxSoyLSPFxK7VA. Now if you are the type that likes lists Channels and finding out the Odd educational facts and such then this channel should defiantely be on your subscribe list. Also as it happens those two gentlemen are also best freinds of sorts So If you want two new Channels to subscribe to for something new and interesting and  in general fun to watch then I Highly suggest you search these two guy out and I  know you won't be disappointed.

 Now back to this blog and my latest WIP's for  my Knitter and crocheter followers. I will post update pictures here as well as my Twitter account and Face Book, Instagram and SnapChat and Moby (when i get it working again) accounts when I remember as the Fentynal patches and the rest of the medications tends to make me Dopey as hell.( I call it being perminantly Blonde minus the bad Dye job)

 The Picture below is the Cabled WIP so far. Its slow going but already half thru the second skein of Lions Brand Heartland acrylic in Serria. yes I am allergic to Most acrylics but so far this isn't killing my hands yet..

Oh yeah, and as I get back into blogging now I will be adding new links and suggestions to all my Kniting & crocheting followers and also some general links to things I  find interesting you all might what to check out. feel free to comment or msg me if you want. If you are going to be negative Be assured I will ignore and remove the post when i see it.

Explination for lack of blogging & Dealing with an Incureable Disease

It's been  a while since I blogged anything due to my health and frankly the pain it has brought down on me. Most people reading this wont understand it all and the 1 maybe 2 or three that do know me and my health issue might have a clue. But the truth of the matter is folks it sucks.. being in chronic pain 24/7/365 from something you can't control and  most people don't see as being a big issue. Well it is. It has No cure, its an obscure thing related to a common problem a lot of people suffer from but its a mutant and Doctors really don't know a hell of lot about it and there are at best mediocre half-ass therapies and half medications that do any good. Tarda lymphodema.. I have learned  to hate that name but there it is.. a disease no one know much about  never speaks about and everyone thinks its easy to deal with. It isn't. Its not so cut and dried people. this is something that begins as one thing mutates into another and control and takes away your life slowly.. or quickly if you are born with it like I was and it was dormant. People assume its nothing major because of its relative relation to  the commonly known issue of Varicose veins. Your wrong. it is major and not much is known about or can be done about it once it begins to spread and that where the pain comes in. Constantly swollen limbs that feel like lead weights contorted into stabbing, pounding and jabbing pain from feet to back, enough to make your stomach twist with nausea. that's what I live with daily and have had to cope with for almost 8yrs now until recently I found a medication that helps to "dull" that pain. But in return for  living  mostly semi pain free I  live in a semi drugged haze as fentynal  is more powerful then morphine and more addictive.
                         Yes,  I can function most of the time but would you want to live a half life in a  dope haze? I don't but that's what I do to be out of chronic pain all the time. But what burns my ass folks is being judged. Yes I said being Judged, called LAZY and other critisims because I sleep a lot now more then ever. That people don't understand even with pain medication I still hurt and with the medication I am also  drugged up. Being  "convicted and jailed" to a home 24hrs a day unless I have no choice but to go out is no way to live. I have a car yes but am I comfortable driving while on medication? No. DO people understand this? Nope. I've been made to feel like my illness is an inconvience to people, Or its not that bad. How would you know hrmm? DO you live with swollen legs 24/7?  do you live  in a world where you can't even wear normal shoes or pants anymore thanks to the mass swelling of your legs? Nope.. didn't think so.  Has your self esteem taken a major blow because you can't even control your weight anymore? If no is the answer to most of those questions then you have no Idea what life I lead so please stop judging me. I wanted to blog this because even I get tired  of Peoples lack of empathy,understand and in general their overwhelming need to dismiss this like its nothing major. It is major, its stripped me of having a normal life.

the swamp ashes Farewell photo before it was taken down& and a Now cleaned up backyard (FINALLY)

Oink Pigments test knitting

 Hey folks following this blog  a little update for you I am currently doing a test knit for Designer Alexa Reither Aka Oink Pigments(oinkpigments@etsy.com is her shop) so I thought I would post the first of two test knits and let you know these patterns are avialable on her etsy shop site.. Happy knitting/crochetting/crafting..